STEPPING INTO THE GODSELF

Today is September 18 as I´m writing this, recognized there’s an importance to writing down my thoughts once more, especially now when there’s so much going on on so many planes of my existence,

I´m grateful for the past few weeks, I’ve been able to record songs for the deluxe, I’m grateful for the vibe I´ve laid out and the foundation it gives for growth of my sonic expression, 

so many avenues I´m looking to explore just sonically and its always good for me to have something to look forward to.

Believe has been such a woowoo word for me lately, guess we can say I’m not really faithful, I don’t know, but I´m certain of being here right now fully, fully aware of my Godself coexisting with my fragile, weak, manipulative, anxious, and survivalist animal, aware of the power, passion, love, desires, and fears that coexist within the self.

I guess that’s being alive,

I´m open to the stream of life fully and want to tackle all the above, I want to experience it all, but it’s important to me that I experience it authentically, as me, and not as a shell that dwells in a life that’s not really mine (NPC vibes). I want to fully be there for the ride if you know what I mean?

There is power when one chooses to walk their own path, I mean this in a way that when we have a vision and decide to act on it, the path might be tuff but it’s so damn liberating to ourselves.

The path of an artist, I’m working with a lot of uncertainty, but I’m grateful I´ve learned and still am learning to trust the unknown. 

Walking in this dark night of the soul invites lots of nihilistic thoughts then actions, not giving in to the mediocre is important.

 I want to dream, laugh, see my loved ones laugh, I want to travel, I want to experience deep romance and intimate connections to people and art and languages and cultures. 

To me, awareness is the first step to coming back (going towards??) the actualized self, hence I´m grateful for this introspection.

I have no doubt of the wonders the unknown holds for me, and I´m grateful for I still carry this childlike wonder attitude towards life, but to fully step into it and carpe diem~ing this shit requires me to let go of self-limiting thoughts, beliefs, and even patterns and step into patterns that amplify the Godself. 

I think imma need more than my brain for this, imma need my entire system aligned and ready to give in to this new direction.

I’m ready.